Woke up to another slacky Sunday with nothing but thoughts of getting a part time job. I've becoming more like a pig, always rotting at home and finishing up all the snacks at home. I want to go out but Mum is not giving me any single penny if I do. See lah, how to survive like that? I'm as dry as a wilted plant. Even when I'm still schooling, I still have some cash on me. This is so irritating, I just have to find my way to get some moolahs.

So, it's all settled. Now I can get my life back since you're already ahead of me. I'm not dumb to not notice what's happening around me. I know what you've been doing so far. You ought to be ashamed of yourself, next time think carefully. It's my luck for not giving in. Thanks friend. I told you so many times not to outsmart me but since you want it this way, I'm giving it to you with just 3 simple words.

Ohh shit, I'm late already. I got to run! See you laterr, nehhhh~

Currently I've been browsing through jobs online. I am so desperate for a job right now and I need cash. I miss shopping for so many unnecessary items and apparels. I love carrying all those big bags and cabbing back home after a long day of shopping. I miss my fat thick wallet. All I have now is just dusts. I've yet to top up my ez-link so that I could travel from one end to the other. Thanks to those whom have recommended me some outlets but it just doesn't seem to be my cup of tea. I'm searching high and low hoping somebody could just tap me from the back and say " Hey, are you looking for a job? I'm looking for somebody who could work retail hours with a minimum salary of $7 per hour?" Wow, if only it happens. Fat hopes.

I don't care about you anymore. Actually, I couldn't be bothered also. Continue what you've left behind. It's already pointless patching it back together, the pieces doesn't seem to fit anymore. I'll take my leave when the time is right. I'll just take baby steps till I get to the top.

The main focus now is for me to get a job and keep myself very busy with whatever. Worst still, I'm going to take up courses to kill time. I've a long holiday ahead so better enquip myself with necessities.I cannot stop now, I've travelled so far. So, I've had a blast at Red Camp. I'll upload the pictures as soon as I got every single one of them yeah? That way, for those who didn't attend, will envy me. MUAHAHA! But seriously, korang tak gy wasted sia.

" Bile aku kluar, kau bising. Biler aku tak kluar, kau risau. Ape saje lah .. "

I've completely lost my mood and if there's anything that I could let go now is just tears. Nowadays I feel so hopeless and so insecure. Words don't bring me down but why can't I be strong about this now? Trying hard to get the puzzle of this game but it's always undone. Nomatter what we do or what we say can bring back the past. If there's one thing that I could just say, you know I'll say I miss you. But till that very day come, I'll just keep quiet. I cannot believe what I'm going through now. I feel so shitty with these sore eyes and also everything ah. I don't know what else I could every say already. Thank you and Goodbye. Reach me through Msn or my phone.

"A CHRISTMAS CAROL" OPENS IN SINGAPORE CINEMAS 19 November 2009!

Boy, what's going through your mind? I just need to know. If you ever continue with muting, I don't know whether I should carry on with this. Stop denying the truth when it's already in your face. I'm not going to flare up for no reason, I just need to know the plain truth. Is it too much to ask for? Kadang-kadang, aku mcm nak tampar kau kuat-kuat kasih kau sedar tau. But seriously, I don't want to, at times when you're giving me such faces it scares me. I know I shouldn't be but if you were to look at yourself in the mirror, you'd know what I mean. I miss you, I miss every single fun we used to have. Like you say, we still have yet a long way to go. Words are sweet but if you could just show me. JUST SHOW ME then nothing like this would go wrong. 3 words could change everything. Words you have said to me, some I could swallow but most of it are just such a pain. There must be something missing here. Please tell me that it's communication. I feel like taking a break from all these. You know how much I really do love you but at times I just feel like ignoring you for months.

I got my a hair cut and also my eyebrows thread. Now I'm waiting for my hair to be highlighted. Then also, waiting for the call. Or else, I'll just end up jobless and maximising my butt shape. Hopefully, I'll get the admin job. Ohh please!! I think I've made a decision. I'm leaving, not turning back. Please get ready.

To have receive such a pleasant surprise on a very unexpected time, your effort have really touched me. Not forgetting the hours spent baking it, you really are my bestest bud. Even though you're days earlier than the actual thing, I'd like to say thank you very much for your gift. Bet, I love you. We shall meet soon alright?

*mentang-mentang dier tu pandai bikin kat SHATEC, nk show off lah tu. hee*

( I love you girl :D)

Another rainy yet mundane day for me. I'm too lazy to even have my shower and it's already two in the afternoon. Lucky I got one stick to last with me the whole day. Again, my butt cannot move anywhere else. I've been rolling in bed, checking my phone to see whether that man have arise from his hibernation. Still, not yet. Mother is back and I've been moaning to her about how tempting it is to have a YAMI YOGURT now. She is deafening her ears, pretending not to hear anything. I don't want to eat rice nor any heavy meals. I would love ice-creams during the cold weather. Wait, not too cold or else I'd need hot chocolate. Still, ice-creams are the best anyone could have ever asked for.

I want to karaoke.
I want to have picnic with babyGs.
I want to eat ice-cream with Hot Chocolate.
I want to shesha with mates.I want to hit the beach with love.
I want to get a job.
I want to meet my dearest girls to gossip all night long.
I want to create a collage of all the lovely people in my life.
I want to shop my heart out.
I want some solid moo-lahs on my door step especially for me.
I want a bigger room.
I want to catch up on the times @ Caramel Cafe/ 3-Monkeys.
I want to trim my hair.
I want my period now to end.